[ Jack can already guess, but it seems like the natural thing to ask here, and it's not like Clarke is the sort of person who's going to talk about something if she doesn't want to. ]
Coming here was a revelation. When I first got here, I had two of my friends, but they disappeared before too long. But I had other people. A city full of them.
Having just Madi wasn't good for me.
[It wasn't good for Madi in the aftermath, either.]
But I think when you factor in human nature—how long do you think it took me to figure that out?
[Clarke figures that Jack will have a proper answer for that. It's mostly rhetorical. "Too long." Isn't that always the answer to questions like that?]
Either way, that means that reconciling what I've lost in returning here isn't as difficult. I've had someone I've loved, too, and I've lost her. I guess I got off lucky.
You're saying that it's easier for you to deal with because you've been through it before? I kind of find that hard to believe. Seems like it's adding insult to injury.
No. Not quite that. I know where Madi is. I can reconcile that. Even if that version of me failed to save that world, I know where my daughter is right now.
That's something I can ground myself in, something more real.
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[ Jack can already guess, but it seems like the natural thing to ask here, and it's not like Clarke is the sort of person who's going to talk about something if she doesn't want to. ]
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Having just Madi wasn't good for me.
[It wasn't good for Madi in the aftermath, either.]
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But I think when you factor in human nature—how long do you think it took me to figure that out?
[Clarke figures that Jack will have a proper answer for that. It's mostly rhetorical. "Too long." Isn't that always the answer to questions like that?]
Either way, that means that reconciling what I've lost in returning here isn't as difficult. I've had someone I've loved, too, and I've lost her. I guess I got off lucky.
Unlike you, I mean.
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That's something I can ground myself in, something more real.
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And if you aren't, then I hope you do have someone you can talk to.
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[ But it's unlikely this is going to be something Jack's ever ready to talk about. ]
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[At least she tried.]