It's not who he is, but it suited what he felt and thought needed to be done at the time. Like I said, he had his reasons. It's a little funny to look back on it all now.
[Clarke is, in fact, smiling at the memory. Bellamy is so grounded now. He's no less prone to fits of emotion, being swept away in what he feels needs to be done without any point of hesitation. But he's no longer reckless, willing to put a hundred lives in danger to avoid consequences. To keep people from hurting his sister. He was always that good, and Clarke was fortunate to see it.]
When it comes to leadership, I've heard a lot that sometimes it's how someone is born. But having the courage to step up and do what you feel needs to be done. Not everyone has that.
It's hard to believe it of myself, but I can see it in other people. I see it in you especially.
I'm not even sure that bravery is the right word for it. Being idle and doing nothing never feels right. According to some people I knew back home, that was leadership.
[Duly noted about Bellamy, shaping his personality a little more than before. Maybe if he gets a chance to know the man better, this same shape will come into full view; for now, he takes Clarke's word for it.]
Less how someone is born, and maybe more how they are raised. How much idealism they're allowed to let foster within themselves, how much they care about the people dear to them and the world around them.
[And how willing that person is to sacrifice themselves for a cause, no matter what it happens to be. Markus doesn't say that much, but perhaps it's implied.]
I wasn't born; I was made for one specific purpose, after all, one that I obviously don't follow any longer.
[I see it in you especially. Flattering, but making something melancholy ring out in his chest all the same.]
We're always our own worst critics, Clarke. I have no doubt you're as much of a leader in reality as you are in my mind. Sometimes I don't feel like I'm made for the part, either, but we do what needs to be done.
I wasn't born to be among the people who would find out that Earth was survivable. My generation was supposed to raise and prepare the generation that would do that. We don't always do what we're intended to do.
We just do what we have to.
[It feels like a pretty good summary for everything they've spoken about up to this point. Their lives before, and who they are now. Whether they believe that of themselves, though it's always easier for others to believe it of them. Clarke is used to that much.]
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[Clarke is, in fact, smiling at the memory. Bellamy is so grounded now. He's no less prone to fits of emotion, being swept away in what he feels needs to be done without any point of hesitation. But he's no longer reckless, willing to put a hundred lives in danger to avoid consequences. To keep people from hurting his sister. He was always that good, and Clarke was fortunate to see it.]
When it comes to leadership, I've heard a lot that sometimes it's how someone is born. But having the courage to step up and do what you feel needs to be done. Not everyone has that.
It's hard to believe it of myself, but I can see it in other people. I see it in you especially.
I'm not even sure that bravery is the right word for it. Being idle and doing nothing never feels right. According to some people I knew back home, that was leadership.
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Less how someone is born, and maybe more how they are raised. How much idealism they're allowed to let foster within themselves, how much they care about the people dear to them and the world around them.
[And how willing that person is to sacrifice themselves for a cause, no matter what it happens to be. Markus doesn't say that much, but perhaps it's implied.]
I wasn't born; I was made for one specific purpose, after all, one that I obviously don't follow any longer.
[I see it in you especially. Flattering, but making something melancholy ring out in his chest all the same.]
We're always our own worst critics, Clarke. I have no doubt you're as much of a leader in reality as you are in my mind. Sometimes I don't feel like I'm made for the part, either, but we do what needs to be done.
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We just do what we have to.
[It feels like a pretty good summary for everything they've spoken about up to this point. Their lives before, and who they are now. Whether they believe that of themselves, though it's always easier for others to believe it of them. Clarke is used to that much.]