It doesn't feel like it is. It just means that I've made up my mind on who I'd choose at the end of the day. That's because it's my responsibility to choose my people like that.
[Perhaps it's cold and callous, but she doesn't feel isolated. Not even here, where there are so many people to befriend and love. And she does do that, quite easily in fact.]
I could adapt people from this experience to that group. But my people back home will need to undergo a lot of change when they get here. As much as I'd love to look after my friends, my people will need time to adjust. To figure out how to go forward. To even have a system of living that doesn't depend on archaic systems.
As their leader, I'm expected to already be several steps ahead on that.
'Course it don't. These things don't feel half so hard from the inside as they do to other folks with different experiences on the outside looking in. When hard is all you know, it's what you adapt for, and live with.
（ people treat him like that sometimes. like some species of spun glass for havin' the life he did, seein' an' doin' what came of war. for him, it was a goddamn tuesday. ）
You'd choose your people, I can think of a half a hundred times where I chose one of my soldiers over somebody else. You're justifying it to me like it's an alien thing — Clarke, it ain't. It's human. People who speak our language, know our customs, hold our beliefs. Who've shared our experiences. Those are the ones we feel most obligated to protect and hold dear.
I think it's noble to want to bring your people to this place. From everything you've told me, it's better than what they know and I can't fault you for wanting something beyond that. But I do think that doing what's good for someone and what's right by them ain't always the same thing.
Not everyone understands how I can spend a year here and still choose my people over them.
[It's been brought up a few times. Clarke knows how it sounds when she talks about her people. There's a hard line there. The fact that she doesn't hide it probably makes her different from other Displaced. There are those with the drive to go home, and then there are the ones who are here, wanting to stay. The middleground is rarely broached, the murky understanding that going one way or another leaves some permanent absences.
Ones that come with a bit more choice than what they currently have available.]
Do you think bringing them here isn't doing right by them?
[As it is, she does need to ask. Clarke hasn't always done right by her people. It's why she focuses on that. Good for them? Keeping them alive? She's done it. But they've had to live with the consequences of her actions, even if she's attempted denial at that very fact.]
A year ain't much, in the grand scheme of our lives. Your loyalties stay with your home. Saw that first hand plenty myself.
（ he loved the boys in his company, don't get him wrong. but he'd still choose his brothers over them, every time. there are times that might be selfish, and there are times it's just human nature. ）
I can't speak to that, as I don't know them. But any time anyone makes choices for a larger group, I think there's the possibility that the folks on whose behalf you're making that choice won't see the how or why of its necessity. It's a hard line to walk and I surely don't envy you the choice.
（ he understands her position, certainly. but he wouldn't want another person making the choice for him sight unseen, neither. which, ultimately, is why he ain't one of her people. ）
We haven't always had the room for us to discuss a choice like that. Too many apocalyptic situations.
[The thought of being able to is nice, however. As much as she wants to free her people from the Primes, free her people from whatever doom was waiting for them there, she knows it's unlikely to come with a long conversation.]
It's something I'd be hoping to give them by letting them come here. I'd understand if they'd decide not to stand by me anymore once they got here. I just want them to have that right.
[It sounds like a pipe dream. But putting it that way? It makes Clarke want it all the more for her people.]
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[Perhaps it's cold and callous, but she doesn't feel isolated. Not even here, where there are so many people to befriend and love. And she does do that, quite easily in fact.]
I could adapt people from this experience to that group. But my people back home will need to undergo a lot of change when they get here. As much as I'd love to look after my friends, my people will need time to adjust. To figure out how to go forward. To even have a system of living that doesn't depend on archaic systems.
As their leader, I'm expected to already be several steps ahead on that.
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（ people treat him like that sometimes. like some species of spun glass for havin' the life he did, seein' an' doin' what came of war. for him, it was a goddamn tuesday. ）
You'd choose your people, I can think of a half a hundred times where I chose one of my soldiers over somebody else. You're justifying it to me like it's an alien thing — Clarke, it ain't. It's human. People who speak our language, know our customs, hold our beliefs. Who've shared our experiences. Those are the ones we feel most obligated to protect and hold dear.
I think it's noble to want to bring your people to this place. From everything you've told me, it's better than what they know and I can't fault you for wanting something beyond that. But I do think that doing what's good for someone and what's right by them ain't always the same thing.
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[It's been brought up a few times. Clarke knows how it sounds when she talks about her people. There's a hard line there. The fact that she doesn't hide it probably makes her different from other Displaced. There are those with the drive to go home, and then there are the ones who are here, wanting to stay. The middleground is rarely broached, the murky understanding that going one way or another leaves some permanent absences.
Ones that come with a bit more choice than what they currently have available.]
Do you think bringing them here isn't doing right by them?
[As it is, she does need to ask. Clarke hasn't always done right by her people. It's why she focuses on that. Good for them? Keeping them alive? She's done it. But they've had to live with the consequences of her actions, even if she's attempted denial at that very fact.]
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（ he loved the boys in his company, don't get him wrong. but he'd still choose his brothers over them, every time. there are times that might be selfish, and there are times it's just human nature. ）
I can't speak to that, as I don't know them. But any time anyone makes choices for a larger group, I think there's the possibility that the folks on whose behalf you're making that choice won't see the how or why of its necessity. It's a hard line to walk and I surely don't envy you the choice.
（ he understands her position, certainly. but he wouldn't want another person making the choice for him sight unseen, neither. which, ultimately, is why he ain't one of her people. ）
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[The thought of being able to is nice, however. As much as she wants to free her people from the Primes, free her people from whatever doom was waiting for them there, she knows it's unlikely to come with a long conversation.]
It's something I'd be hoping to give them by letting them come here. I'd understand if they'd decide not to stand by me anymore once they got here. I just want them to have that right.
[It sounds like a pipe dream. But putting it that way? It makes Clarke want it all the more for her people.]