You said that this is how he is, but in this case, he's done the following:
1. Rude to both me and others, while they were still working out a plan. 2. Unnecessarily rude to me for stating what those worked out plans were going to be, or the flaws we needed to overcome. 3. Stated that we had a "history," when we had a previous conversation where, like this time, he assumed the worst of my intentions (where I was previously simply trying to declare an order of prioritization). That is, in fact, the totality of our so-called history. He doesn't get to claim a history with me in order to treat me poorly. 4. Otherwise, we had worked and collaborated easily enough.
What I did was wrong. I accept that.
But I don't accept "he's just this way" as an excuse anymore, Castiel.
I am sorry that you died to get back here, though.
I'm not here to play buffer for Dean's social friction, or chastise him for unkind behavior towards people he dislikes. If you think he's rude, tell him that.
Do not use me as a knife to his throat, unless you're prepared to turn it on your own.
You intervened before and made excuses for him. That's what I'm referring to right now.
Not the action I took. The actions he's taken. You can say there's no excuse. I'm not planning on doing it again. But this is going to keep coming up as long as you make excuses for him, and you have.
So, this conversation is now about what you personally find upsetting in retrospect, rather than using a man's recent trauma to unsettle him and get the last word.
"I'm not planning on doing it again" is all I came for. I'm not interested in your justifications, complaints, or perceived truths, Clarke.
If you'd rather I not intervene in the future, or attempt to explain, fine. I won't.
[It was more the relationship that she was angling for than the trauma, but Clarke knows it won't matter to bring that up. To point out the truth of it. They've decided what they've decided, and as ever, Clarke will live with it.]
I'd advise you to let him deal with his own messes. I know you won't, and will only intervene or not intervene when it comes to me.
But he might learn to compromise rather than force others to compromise their ideas for him.
I know you're likely to point out that I don't. It's a common comeback. It's also not true. So let's not go there.
[ when you trigger someone, you don't really get to decide the specifics of it yourself. regardless of the intention, however ignorant of the weight and consequence, it happened. the relationship was birthed and weaponized against them in the aerie by more than the system itself. the entire world sought to destroy them with it, and succeeded.
reading 'you're likely to point out' and 'common comeback', castiel's patience thins and evaporates, unwilling to have himself pulled any further into this. he'd said he isn't here for a debate, and he'd meant it. what he'd wanted to communicate is done, message sent and recieved. cas may be one of the few in this world to truly qualified for the sentiment 'i'm too fucking old for this shit'. ]
You know very little about Dean Winchester and his ability to compromise. This has less to do with his abilities, more with his relationship with you.
I do hope the two of you will resolve your issues, but this is far from my most pressing concern at the moment. Good luck, Clarke.
[Her "quarrel," as they'd say, isn't with Castiel. It would barely be with Dean if things hadn't turned the way they did. But since they did, she's standing her ground.
As it is, she knows that her final words probably illustrate that clearly enough. She'll help if he needs it. Besides, Lexa had chosen him as someone to accept as one of theirs. Even if she now sees that such a choice would come with complications, she's not going to leave him with nothing if it proves necessary for him.]
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Any cooperation between us ends if it happens a second time.
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There is a "but" here, however.
You said that this is how he is, but in this case, he's done the following:
1. Rude to both me and others, while they were still working out a plan.
2. Unnecessarily rude to me for stating what those worked out plans were going to be, or the flaws we needed to overcome.
3. Stated that we had a "history," when we had a previous conversation where, like this time, he assumed the worst of my intentions (where I was previously simply trying to declare an order of prioritization). That is, in fact, the totality of our so-called history. He doesn't get to claim a history with me in order to treat me poorly.
4. Otherwise, we had worked and collaborated easily enough.
What I did was wrong. I accept that.
But I don't accept "he's just this way" as an excuse anymore, Castiel.
I am sorry that you died to get back here, though.
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I'm not here to play buffer for Dean's social friction, or chastise him for unkind behavior towards people he dislikes. If you think he's rude, tell him that.
Do not use me as a knife to his throat, unless you're prepared to turn it on your own.
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Not the action I took. The actions he's taken. You can say there's no excuse. I'm not planning on doing it again. But this is going to keep coming up as long as you make excuses for him, and you have.
What I said was cruel. But it was also true.
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"I'm not planning on doing it again" is all I came for. I'm not interested in your justifications, complaints, or perceived truths, Clarke.
If you'd rather I not intervene in the future, or attempt to explain, fine. I won't.
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I'd advise you to let him deal with his own messes. I know you won't, and will only intervene or not intervene when it comes to me.
But he might learn to compromise rather than force others to compromise their ideas for him.
I know you're likely to point out that I don't. It's a common comeback. It's also not true. So let's not go there.
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reading 'you're likely to point out' and 'common comeback', castiel's patience thins and evaporates, unwilling to have himself pulled any further into this. he'd said he isn't here for a debate, and he'd meant it. what he'd wanted to communicate is done, message sent and recieved. cas may be one of the few in this world to truly qualified for the sentiment 'i'm too fucking old for this shit'. ]
You know very little about Dean Winchester and his ability to compromise. This has less to do with his abilities, more with his relationship with you.
I do hope the two of you will resolve your issues, but this is far from my most pressing concern at the moment. Good luck, Clarke.
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[Her "quarrel," as they'd say, isn't with Castiel. It would barely be with Dean if things hadn't turned the way they did. But since they did, she's standing her ground.
As it is, she knows that her final words probably illustrate that clearly enough. She'll help if he needs it. Besides, Lexa had chosen him as someone to accept as one of theirs. Even if she now sees that such a choice would come with complications, she's not going to leave him with nothing if it proves necessary for him.]