Listen- I wanted to apologize. Regardless of my own infection, I Well, I hurt people. That's not something I mean to do, and thus I'm sorry. Truly.
[ apologies are always hard. it's not generally something in the spectrum in which he has experience, so it's ... new, different, and not exactly something he has any confidence in portraying without a level of control. ]
[ it felt like everyone was too free with their own forgiveness, and it unnerved him. ]
It came close to something I never meant to be, a memory of something else. I'll leave it at that. But I didn't come empty handed, I have something to offer you something in return.
Then I won't bother telling you that. We all have a monster inside of us. We'd be foolish if we denied it once it showed itself.
[Still, she has a hard time connecting the Markus she knows with the Markus who had changed. Maybe it's unfair to idealize him over Loki, but that's how it is.]
[ join the club, Clarke. he doesn't know if he felt more himself, or less himself, and it terrifies him to close that gap. ]
I'll be clear that there are no names involved, however- There was a stint with a scalpel and a dissection- or more like vivisection, really, in the center of the chest where our blue glowy thingie happens to be. Down to the bone, Clarke, I saw it myself, there's nothing there.
Your vote of confidence is truly comforting. They're not so easily satisfied. You can guess why. I don't need to get into access to digital records or anything else that would pose a questionable risk.
[ "not so easily satisfied" as in "extreme people." if there was something in their chest, he knew quickly would the vivisection would have gone. ]
[People like that stand the chance of posing their own risk.]
Digital records may be a problem, but this at least gives me grounding to ensure everyone that they can get medical care without being overly paranoid. We're unique, but not so unique that our records may declare us as such.
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I wanted to apologize. Regardless of my own infection, I
Well, I hurt people. That's not something I mean to do, and thus I'm sorry. Truly.
[ apologies are always hard. it's not generally something in the spectrum in which he has experience, so it's ... new, different, and not exactly something he has any confidence in portraying without a level of control. ]
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Though ... with me, it sounded a lot like you, at least if you had cause to take issue with me.
[As far as Clarke knows, that hasn't happened.
Yet.]
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[ it felt like everyone was too free with their own forgiveness, and it unnerved him. ]
It came close to something I never meant to be, a memory of something else. I'll leave it at that.
But I didn't come empty handed, I have something to offer you something in return.
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[Still, she has a hard time connecting the Markus she knows with the Markus who had changed. Maybe it's unfair to idealize him over Loki, but that's how it is.]
Anyway.
Go on.
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I'll be clear that there are no names involved, however-
There was a stint with a scalpel and a dissection- or more like vivisection, really, in the center of the chest where our blue glowy thingie happens to be.
Down to the bone, Clarke, I saw it myself, there's nothing there.
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Could you see the glow? Did you activate it to see what would happen?
[General "you." She doesn't care to specify, and if Loki takes it the wrong way, then ... well.
That's on him.]
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[ Damian and Jason had wanted to check, but honestly? he knew what the answer would be, he had told them so much. ]
Aye, the bond was activated.
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But ... one more thing.]
Are you keeping their identities a secret because they didn't go the very obvious route of x-rays or an MRI?
Did you bother to explain these things to them?
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They're not so easily satisfied. You can guess why. I don't need to get into access to digital records or anything else that would pose a questionable risk.
[ "not so easily satisfied" as in "extreme people." if there was something in their chest, he knew quickly would the vivisection would have gone. ]
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Digital records may be a problem, but this at least gives me grounding to ensure everyone that they can get medical care without being overly paranoid. We're unique, but not so unique that our records may declare us as such.
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As for the rest, we all look perfectly normal barring the blue glow when we hold hands.
Well, most of us, of course.
[ not him nor Thor. ]
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Both parts.
Well, I'm ready.