I supported it until he made it clear that he had no intention of stopping. I could see the wear it was taking on everyone.
I can understand why he wanted to do it. What he thought it'd do. Sometimes you need to expose yourself to get information and answers. My people learned that.
[ he is clarke and daisy's friend so she tries to word this carefully, luckily she's been talking to cassius and akechi for so long in such a short period of time, careful wording is coming easier. ]
He doesn't recognize the sway he has amongst the Displaced.
[ he is The Boss to a number of them, he's a full grown adult, he's seemingly smart and clever, he is a male authority figure to a fair few of the Displaced. if he says let's go kill ourselves, how many of them are going to do it because they want him to be proud of them?
dying is awful even when you wake up the next day. ]
[It's sway in a sense, but only in that Stephen is very good at putting a plan forward and making it seem sensible. Clarke's seen all sides of him now. Bad or good. He carries the weight of it, and bottles it away. Again, bad or good—it's hard to say.]
Without exposing too much of Stephen himself, I don't believe he's very good at factoring his own personhood into things, so it's hard for him to do the same for others. I know he was a more methodical person at one point in his life. It's meant that he's come across as cruel and callous to some of us, though he's gotten better.
[Clarke is being purposefully vague here. Stephen was cruel to her early on, despite all her efforts to expect him to train her and teach her as a physician. He had told her that his efforts would be wasted on her. There were better potential medical providers around at the time. It forced Clarke to take that path alone.
More than that, she's died while caught up in one of his dreams. Time and time again, if only because she thought she deserved it.]
The problem is that for all our differences, we're willing to put ourselves on the line. The Displaced are almost all capable of that, and all willing to do that. If Stephen didn't lead them, someone else would.
There was a time when I would've done the same. A friend's voice crept into my head and reminded me that I needed to stop thinking that way.
So, no, I don't think it's sway. I think it's that sometimes he gives a voice to the lack of self-preservation that a lot of the Displaced have. Generally speaking.
And he's no better at caring for himself. It's why when I told him to have an exit strategy, he got caught up.
[ sounds like sway, clarke. or worse, purposeful manipulation to prey on the displaced's general lack of self-preservation. (which is a concept baffling in and of itself, jyn is reckless but she draws the line at purposefully and repeatedly suicidal.)
it's become easy to tell where she and clarke aren't going to agree and jyn doesn't press those issues, this is one of those issues. ]
Not caring for himself is a poor reason.
Either way, don't put looking after every single person solely on your plate now that suicide is off it. Let someone look after you, too.
Bellamy. Tell him I've volunteered him for the job.
[It's hard to explain without being there. Jyn has been so accepting of her faults, of her blind willingness to do things when she justifies them to herself. Clarke can get people to follow her, too. That's been a problem before. It may be again.
But Jyn knows and loves Clarke. It doesn't sound like there's any love lost on Stephen.]
I should have stepped in and stopped him, but I directed my energies elsewhere. We're working on something in here, but it sounds like ... people are noticing more than just that. They're showing their strength. That they can be hopeful beyond this.
But they're noticing us.
It's not a plan I'd do without Bellamy, if that makes you feel any better.
[ maybe a reminder to herself too. as flippant as jyn generally is because emotions are for chumps, she is stressed out with the idea that 40 million people are depending on the actions of, like, twelve people. ]
It's changing out here, too. Little things. People finding their voices again.
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[ daisy: go easy on him, jyn
jyn: no, he can fuck off ]
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I can understand why he wanted to do it. What he thought it'd do. Sometimes you need to expose yourself to get information and answers. My people learned that.
But there's a point when you stop learning.
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[ he is clarke and daisy's friend so she tries to word this carefully, luckily she's been talking to cassius and akechi for so long in such a short period of time, careful wording is coming easier. ]
He doesn't recognize the sway he has amongst the Displaced.
[ he is The Boss to a number of them, he's a full grown adult, he's seemingly smart and clever, he is a male authority figure to a fair few of the Displaced. if he says let's go kill ourselves, how many of them are going to do it because they want him to be proud of them?
dying is awful even when you wake up the next day. ]
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[It's sway in a sense, but only in that Stephen is very good at putting a plan forward and making it seem sensible. Clarke's seen all sides of him now. Bad or good. He carries the weight of it, and bottles it away. Again, bad or good—it's hard to say.]
Without exposing too much of Stephen himself, I don't believe he's very good at factoring his own personhood into things, so it's hard for him to do the same for others. I know he was a more methodical person at one point in his life. It's meant that he's come across as cruel and callous to some of us, though he's gotten better.
[Clarke is being purposefully vague here. Stephen was cruel to her early on, despite all her efforts to expect him to train her and teach her as a physician. He had told her that his efforts would be wasted on her. There were better potential medical providers around at the time. It forced Clarke to take that path alone.
More than that, she's died while caught up in one of his dreams. Time and time again, if only because she thought she deserved it.]
The problem is that for all our differences, we're willing to put ourselves on the line. The Displaced are almost all capable of that, and all willing to do that. If Stephen didn't lead them, someone else would.
There was a time when I would've done the same. A friend's voice crept into my head and reminded me that I needed to stop thinking that way.
So, no, I don't think it's sway. I think it's that sometimes he gives a voice to the lack of self-preservation that a lot of the Displaced have. Generally speaking.
And he's no better at caring for himself. It's why when I told him to have an exit strategy, he got caught up.
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it's become easy to tell where she and clarke aren't going to agree and jyn doesn't press those issues, this is one of those issues. ]
Not caring for himself is a poor reason.
Either way, don't put looking after every single person solely on your plate now that suicide is off it. Let someone look after you, too.
Bellamy. Tell him I've volunteered him for the job.
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[It's hard to explain without being there. Jyn has been so accepting of her faults, of her blind willingness to do things when she justifies them to herself. Clarke can get people to follow her, too. That's been a problem before. It may be again.
But Jyn knows and loves Clarke. It doesn't sound like there's any love lost on Stephen.]
I should have stepped in and stopped him, but I directed my energies elsewhere. We're working on something in here, but it sounds like ... people are noticing more than just that. They're showing their strength. That they can be hopeful beyond this.
But they're noticing us.
It's not a plan I'd do without Bellamy, if that makes you feel any better.
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[ maybe a reminder to herself too. as flippant as jyn generally is because emotions are for chumps, she is stressed out with the idea that 40 million people are depending on the actions of, like, twelve people. ]
It's changing out here, too. Little things. People finding their voices again.
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We'll make sure New Amsterdam is ready to back them up once they're free. Their voices will help. I know they will.